I started this blog as a way to save myself. I was hurting, I felt lost and I was becoming hopeless. I was searching for something, maybe it was something I thought I lost, or maybe I never had. My life was not as I planned it, there was an emptiness that I could not seem to fill no matter what I bought, or what or who I had around me; and I couldn't see a light at the end of the tunnel. At the time I didn't know if it was spiritual, emotional, mental or all three; Everything felt so heavy, so dark, I was contemplating give up.
To be honest, I know it was God, it was definitely something bigger than myself, holding on to me because I had given everything I had, and had no more fight in me. I didn't know what else to do, so I was preparing to stop doing anything at all. I had been praying, working, doing school, taking care of my family- all things I felt I should be doing. But I felt empty nonetheless. My last attempt was a desperate prayer, one where I told God, at this point I don't want to fight anymore. But to my surprise God gave me something. As I relinquished all control, and learned to let go, I began focusing on my spirituality, I began to turn inward, digging deep into myself to make space for whatever God had in store for me. As I let go of old things and made space to receive something new....I felt different, I felt lighter but more full of substance. First a small seed of faith, and then one of love, then of compassion, as I continue to grow, and move forward, I finally started to see some light...or a more accurate account is I finally began to become a light.
I became inspired to write, and so I began writing, just for myself, as a way to cope and develop. I needed somewhere safe to put my deepest thoughts and feelings… so I put them on pages. These writings are the recordings of my experiences, my thoughts and my emotions, that help me find myself, recreate myself, and love myself. Later I was inspired by a prophecy given to me in 2019 to share my writings...
In this lifestyle blog I share some of my most pivotal moments; My mountain days, as well as my valley days. I used to keep everything to myself, that eventually weighed me down, and almost buried me. I found myself in a very dark place, but I was blessed to have met a light during a time where I wanted to give up. We're all on this journey called life, and we all find ourselves lost at some point. So I share my story, my journey, with hopes that I can be a light to someone. I write with hope that someone finds something in here that inspires them to keep going, to rediscover, or even recreate the best version of themself. Thank you for allowing me to share with you, and I wish you the best of luck in moments to come.
" I don't know the answers of the universe, or how to fix the whole world, but I believe that a good place to start is with myself. If the peace does not start within where does it start? "